WELLBEING support .. lived experience,

trial and error, personal battles ..

20+ years of sobriety

"PERFECTION IS MYTHOLOGY"

"IF AN EAR is CLOSED YOUR VOICE is SILENT"

PEACE IN - LOVE OUT

 PEACE IN - LOVE OUT        PEACE IN - LOVE OUT

C. A. ALLEN

All ENQUIRIES  ~  info@beelzebubabble.co.uk

IF YOUR EAR is CLOSED MY VOICE is SILENT

   When ill with bipolar rage: swift ack-ack mood changes, this quote: "IF YOUR EAR IS CLOSED MY VOICE IS SILENT" emerged gently and sadly with small cathartic tears and a grateful smile. My support worker was graciously downplaying her listening, kindness and patience which was akin to angelic. I was virtually "street-drug high, raging" in an extreme mixed manic phase. Such phases and reactions which occur in most intersecting mental health conditions are very scary, unsettling, disabling and unpleasant for both the sufferer and any support workers, friends or family.

   I will brave a philosophical quagmire... it is my opinion that most ill people do not want to behave this way, think, say or shout anything harmful, they want continuity, peace, tranquility, to feel better and regain a durable longview.

   I see my pain, my anguish and that of others as part of recovery and metamorphosis: I shan't be swanning around in fancy flamboyant attire but am happy to be considered as a vibrant, content and relaxed butterfly escaping chrysalis. The fires of mania are dying. Until the next time.. it is best to be realistic about recovery .. illness can return regardless of economic strategies .. so it is good to document what kept you bouyant and return to said anchor when possible. 

"if my ear is closed, your voice is silent."